This trial’s come
So I’ll find some
Memories of times that we once knew.
And until it’s passed
I’ll hold fast
To those thoughts I have of you.
You have to leave
But I won’t grieve
I know I’ll see you soon.
So until that time
In this grand design
I’ll sing my heart’s sweet tune.
Take my heart
As you depart
Protect it as if your own.
For Brother dear
I’ll hold you near
You do not walk alone.
Category: Poetry (Page 23 of 36)
Do I trust you?
Asked the moth to the Flame.
Of course…
there is no choice in the matter.
What secrets are hidden
Within the flickers of Light
That have captured my Soul
And changed my life forever?
What stories will my mind create
As I dance around this open Fire
Longing…searching,
Never to be lost again?
I hold my breath as I dive headlong in
Never sure of the outcome
Never asking for a reprieve
Only trusting, loving, wanting, burning.
I am consumed whole
A moth no more, the flame resounds
There is nothing left of me
The identity gets transformed.
I give myself to You, the Light
As an offering to what is to be
Hold me…take me…do to me what You will
The “me” becomes “We”
The “I” becomes “Us”
The dance ceases its solo act
As the Fire consumes me completely.
Love is all that remains.
Embraced it all
Let go of nothing
Tested muster in a winter’s storm.
Closed off it all
Held on to nothing
Betrayed in a holy melancholy.
It was you.
Fought the demon’s song
It was all a ruse
Lying to me as if it was real.
I feel a shiver
Just at the thought of your touch
Now that is a fine reality!
It is you.
Gone is the shroud of tyranny
Left is the open song of Love
To be sung in its own free time.
I King, to you Queen,
Walk the Lion and the Tigress
Together because they want to be.
It is us.
I cannot lie
It all becomes simple when faced with the Truth.
I love you.
I am silly.
I can be stupid.
I can be stubborn.
But I love you.
I am forgetful.
I can be blind.
I can be mindless.
Have I told you I love you?
I am true.
I am sure.
I am where I want to be.
Because I love you.
I am strong.
I am ready.
I am yours.
And I love you.
I was wrong.
I am right (now).
Please forgive me.
I love you.
Now…
And Now…
And even Now…
Guess what?
I love you.
I have failed,
Or so it feels.
To have walked in such intense Sunlight,
Makes the shadows feel so cold.
So now I wonder…
I have lost,
Or so it feels.
To have felt so blessed in the light of Love,
Makes its absence so blinding.
So now I stumble…
I am falling,
Or so it feels.
To have tread such steady ground only to feel it shudder,
Makes the Mountains seem to crumble.
So now I look…
I look up to the Heavens,
And ask the Universe for some air,
For I am a drowning man unsure of anything outside his Heart,
Now just looking for some reality in the dream.
I scream out to the Horizon,
And ask Her to speak to me,
Just whisper in my ear,
And tell me stories like those She used to tell.
For now I am thinking,
Or so it feels.
The mind goes round and round like an avalanche,
Taking with it all ability to know.
So now I lay unsure…
I am doubting,
Or so it feels.
Not out of a want to but simply in the absence of what once appeared so easily,
Which for now has disappeared.
So now I simply crumble.
It is true I am but a man,
The blood that once carried me through Hell,
Now bends me at my knee to this absence.
And I feel alone.
Not alone in the sense I used to walk,
As joyful as a wolf in the midst of winter,
But rather as a Lion who has fallen for a Tigress,
Who no longer hears Him roar.
So now I am just a humbled cat,
Missing what he thought was paradise,
Gone into a shell reserved once for the worst of him.
Hopeful..faithful…loyal to the end.
It is nothing he demands of his Lover,
He makes no such demand nor wants Her sympathy.
He simply wants to know.
More than his thoughts want to tell him.
What has happened to the air he breathed?
Where has all the Sunshine gone?
Did the Earth suddenly change its rotation?
Did the tides suddenly shift their direction?
What has changed?
There are…things.
Things that create other things,
Ideas that create other ideas,
Suffering that creates other suffering,
Beauty that creates other beauty,
Passion that creates passion,
Contentment that creates contentment.
Love just allows it all to be.
Love steps back and watches the experience.
It doesn’t judge, It doesn’t question,
It simply stays true to Itself in perfect harmony.
Love stands true, ready for your acceptance,
Never pleading, never trying,
Just ready…Just willing…Just able.
Love seeks to share Itself
Even in the midst of the fear that hides It.
Love is not withdrawn
Even in the midst of the anger that temporarily rises above It.
Love is not phony, or fake, or lost
Even when the darkest hour approaches.
Love can be counted on,
It comes to the aid of those in need without condition,
Love can be trusted and forgiving,
It breathes, It caresses, It demands acceptance.
Love does not vanish into the abyss,
Rather it lights up the corridors of our minds.
Love does not feel pressure in the suffering of a beloved,
It seeks to comfort, console, confide.
Love does not demand Its freedom
For It can never be imprisoned.
Love simply holds us in Its hands
And shows us the way to pure ecstasy.
The Sun has no charm this morning
The Stars give way to nothingness
The birds sing no songs of enchantment
The rain has not washed away a thing
I just sit wishing.
This, too, is just a thing
It will pass as did the time
I took flight and sailed above the clouds
Thinking I would never touch the ground again
I just sit hoping.
That this sleepless night is over
That I’ll move beyond the boundaries of my mind
Into the realms shared by gods and sinners alike
Touching, kissing, loving, forgetting
I just sit praying.
That your fragrance never escapes my senses
That the feel of your hand in mind will never just be a memory
That we will understand and believe
In this, in each other, in what makes us who we are
I just sit wanting.
The pieces of a puzzle do not look exact,
Yet they fit to make a whole as the picture becomes clearer,
Still, I surrender this moment while praying I share this cup with you
In a warm embrace of the Heart
I just sit waiting.
Where am I?
I fumble at night like a drunkard,
Slicing my fingers on this broken glass,
I search to find a meaning in mind,
And return my head up my ass.
Am I to believe I am worthy?
Or is this gutter the place I belong?
I struggle to knee as I desire to see,
Exactly what I’d done wrong.
The voices begin their laughter,
The demons let out their cheer,
The rage in my mind leaves nothing behind,
As it sings the song I’ve held dear.
I once stood all flayed open,
Believing there’s nothing to hide,
In the blink of my eyes I saw the disguise,
And now I kneel with nothing inside.
In this darkest of darkness I wander,
Yet there is but one glimmer of Light,
I focus intensely on what I can see,
An end to this Loneliest Night.
Love, sweet love,
Threatening the past’s own sorrow,
I feel you tonight as I search out the light,
But what will come of my eyesight tomorrow?
I can hear a voice in the distance,
Drowning out the demons’ devices,
“Nothing is real, that is the deal,”
I’m creating each and every new crisis.
If turn to all that’s without,
And lean on the crutch of my past,
Doomed to repeat the broken heart at my feet,
It certainly won’t be the last.
If I turn to all that’s within,
And see this moment brand new,
I’ll be jumping for joy for what fear can’t destroy,
And hopefully be landing with you.
I fall off the ledge into darkness,
Grasping for one thread of light,
It takes two to dance to the song of romance,
But the song I’ll be singing tonight.
So if by chance I land near you,
And you could open your arms to this Heart,
I’ll never believe that you meant to deceive,
When you decided to break it apart.
For now I’ll settle for stillness,
And the strength my life has since taught,
I’ll worship the ground while looking around,
In seeking that which has sought.
I Love you,
As I have for a million trillion lifetimes,
As I will for a million trillion more.
The Sun has risen and sings It’s lofty song.
You take me above the clouds,
Into the Universe flying among the stars,
And caress me in the Moonlight,
In some place I’ve never been before.
I know, I’ve always known,
Whatever lifetimes we’ve shared I have known,
You.
It’s always been you.
Finding insecurity,
The voices get the best of me,
I drowning here with no one on the shore.
Let outside into the storm,
Finding nothing’s there to keep me warm,
There must be something, there must be something more.
Head spinning,
This was before you…
You’re winning,
Like there was never something more
Before you.
I remember nothing ever grew,
But excuses in the dark that were made true,
Counting out the times that created the worst of me.
The blind led the blind into the rain,
The fires of hell drove me insane,
Left alone until the Demons set me free.
Cold winds blowing,
This was all before you…
And now love is showing,
There was never something more
Before you.
Torn but never crying,
And now I crumble before you…
Giving all I have to give without trying,
I’ve never known this before
Before you.