In the misty spaces that I roam
And the rocky beaches I call home
I sit, and stare, at yesterday
And wish those evil things away.
Lost in time’s strange avenue
Are longing, torrid thoughts of you
I find such distance hard to bear
Yet in that space I feel you there.
My heart has drifted to where you are
My soul has found that lonely star
I beg and plead for love’s reprise
In there I find my mind’s surprise.
I close my eyes just to see
Those lips, those eyes, that destiny
To know this place I’m dreaming of
Is Life, is Hope, in this thing called Love.
Category: Poetry (Page 17 of 36)
Thanks to the efforts of a good friend of mine, Casey Alls, three of my best poems are now set to a feminine voice as part of her Heart Songs book launch on February 25th. I’m proud to be featured in the book, and only look forward to its success. Thank you Casey.
The poems I’ve written included in this set are:
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See me want you
See me want to fill you
See me want to take you
See me want to never let you go.
Hear me whisper to your soul
Hear me slowly tear away your layers
Hear me drop my guard and kiss away your tears
Hear me speak to you my innermost truth.
Feel me enter you
Feel all of me enter all of you
Feel me give you all of who I am
Feel me…now…then…forevermore
And accept me now in my weakness as you do in my perfection.
I smell your soul as I inhale
And smell the truth of all that is
The sweet fragrance of eternity
Arouses that part of me that can never die.
I taste you as you quench my thirst
That sweet knowing of a million yesterdays
And I bet you please don’t go
As I taste the bitter nectar of my own insecurity.
Feel me…and never let me go.
See me…and forever hold me in your heart.
Taste me and know that I am real.
Smell me…and let the fragrance forgive me of my sins.
Hear me…and take me beyond…beyond the music of my mind.
Into silence.
Let the sense take us into silence.
Let the tears wash us of our shelter
And the sweat cleanse us of our humanity.
∞
I see myself in that lonely old man
Walking down the street with an empty hand
It once was held by an Angel like you
I just want you to understand
I just want you to understand
I was one a gentle babe in the night
I grew up a man afraid of sight
Please forgive this blindness in me
I just want you to understand
I just want you to understand
I’ve never known and I’ve never seen
A sky so blue…or grass so green
Please just love me as I try to find my way
One day I’ll understand
One day I’ll understand
There are times when I’ve gotten it right
Never has a candle burned so bright
You know them all you were right next to me
That’s how I know I’ll understand
Because I want to understand
One thing’s for certain there’s love left in me
Please just hold me as I set it free
Because I have a dream and that vision is true
I’ll grow old lying right next to you
In passing on we understand.
In living truth we understand.
∞
You and I are like two ice cubes
We are separate and individual
Each our own yet each a part of the same water.
Then, we are removed from our tray
Placed by the Universe on the same glass
Embracing, knowing, melting.
And here we are, the two of us
Melting into a single puddle
While staying two in the same glass.
The puddle is where the love is
Where the two become One
A testament of a love discovered in the knowing.
We dance as the glass is stirred
Melting a little more with each passing note of the song
With each moment in the warmth of love.
Sometimes there is a chill
Because ice can be cold even in the warmth
Yet in the chill we can still melt, still find the puddle if that is what we desire.
Sometimes we clang against the glass
Not taking the shape of the wonder we are in
And there we find our misery.
The chill isn’t what defines us
It is our desire to find the transformation
As we change from the ice into the puddle of love.
Now, I melt a little further
And hope you’ll melt a little bit with me
Because where I find you touching me is where I want to be.
Now, I melt a little more
And hope that you’ll melt a little more as well
Because where we meet is where the magic is.
One day when we have surrendered
And we are but one puddle in the glass
We will then become the air.
And in the air we will find our liberation
We will find our boundless, loving liberty
Still One not needing any container.
And in the air we will find each other differently
Still touching, still holding, still loving
Becoming the dance, the song, the holy melody.
We will float high into the sky
Together, hardly seen by the naked eye
Yet being seen by all just the same.
We may never remember the tray
Or the glass where we found each other
But the puddle we will never forget.
The air we embrace will be our reminder
The way we touch will be our loving testimony
That nothing changes love, but love changes everything.
Embrace me now my lover
And melt with me a little more.
Let me feel your embrace through the chill
Let me know your desire through the puddle that we share.
And melt a little further…and further still
As we head toward our shared destiny.
I want you to know what I see
When I look at you.
I see an explosion in my heart
I see the valleys rise above the sea
I see the mountains touch the sky
I see diamonds in the roughest parts of me.
I want you to know what I feel
When I look at you.
I feel like I could touch the moon
I feel like I could climb the highest mountain
I feel something I have never felt before
I feel something I may never feel again.
I want you to know what I want
When I look at you.
I want to know nothing but that truth
I want to know everything that ever was
I want to know everything that will ever be
I want to know…you.
I know that you are used to this
This feeling you inspire
But I am not used to having it inspired within me
And it takes time for me to understand.
Yet I will never stop trying
And I will never stop striving
To be the best for you that I can be.
I will never stop wanting
And I will never stop loving
You
Regardless of the ideas my mind creates
Or the challenges that you bring into my life
Because the rewards are the most beautiful
And the moments the most perfect
That I have ever known.
So, if you love me and you know the truth of those perfect moments
Stay.
Know them with me, and walk with me into that good light.
Show me the power of the heart that guides you
And the intelligence of the mind that speaks for you
With the strength of the character that makes me want to surrender to you.
I will give you all of me and stay true to you in turn
Knowing that if anyone deserved that part of me it was you.
I am sorry for the challenge of me
and I am sorry for being so unsure
In the challenge that is you.
I am sorry for tripping over my own two feet
And believing the wicked stories of others in my mind.
While forgetting who you are to me, to us,
And trying to prove my own strength in the process.
I am nervous yet I am sure.
I am nervous because of the bruises on our hearts
And the distance we cannot help but share.
I am sure because of the feelings you give to me
Even on the coldest winter’s morn
And the hottest summer’s day
That make it all so perfectly perfect.
Put your hand here, on my chest
And heal me.
I will kiss you where your heart beats loudly
And heal those parts of you.
The story has been written my love
And when the book finally closes for the final time
It will still be you, and it will still be me
And what a story we will have told.
Because when I look at you
I know I don’t see what others see
I see love looking right back at me
I see a woman who loves me
Who wants me
Who needs me
Who saves the best of her for the worst of me
And who saves herself for the best of me.
No, they don’t get to see what looks at me
So I am the luckiest fucking man in the world
A man not used to being so lucky
Now smiles in the glow of your love
Wanting to take the best of you for the best of me
Today, tomorrow, forever.
I love you.
Yes, I know…she says
And I forgive you
I forgive the rashness of your passion
I forgive the deepness of your pain
And I am here…
Yes, I know…she says
And I love you
Despite the blood that trickles from your wounds
And the tears that stain my pillow
I am here…and I will never leave.
There is no place I’d rather be…she says
My lover, my Lion, my man
For I know you’d never leave me
Even as the words spill from your frothing mouth
I am here…you are loved.
You are my greatest joy…I say
And my deepest sorrow and will surely to be the death of me
I reach out to empty air
And wonder where you are and why the silence reigns
I am nowhere…
Do not worry, my love…she says
For I know you – all of you
I can see the beauty in our embrace
I can feel the power in our dance
I know the truth when you say nothing at all
And I am here…and I love you.
Then why can I not see you?…I say
Why is your soul no longer speaking to me?
Why am I alone in the silence of this hell
drowning in the salty sea of this sobbing heart
smelling nothing but my rotting flesh?
You can see me…she says
As the tears cross your eyes and the sobs escape your lips
I am there…right there
With each piece of your breaking heart that lands in the sea
I am there…the water itself.
And I say
Then as the night turns into day
And my mind is driven into the depths of hellish agony
I will drown here…in you…the sea of the only truth I’ve ever known
I am here…and I love you too.
Goodbye, my love…she says.
After the coldest of nights
The slightest whisper from the Sun
Sets my soul on fire…
In its absence I feel the coldness
The numbness
The night continues beyond the dawn.
The night is something we cannot fight
Even if we search for the Sun within our own horizon
The night invades where the wounds are deepest.
Now, the coldest night drags on
The frigid wind of silence courses through my veins
In a lonely song of anger’s wrath.
Goodnight, sweet prince
To time and love you bow your soul
You kneel before the flame’s own altar.
To remember…to feign the air of ignorance is unholy
To love…to pretend to need it not is a lie
To want…the thirst continues as parched lips call your name.
Forgive me my moments of weakness
My mind’s own self-destructive prophesy
And know what I am even before my eyes can see it.
Now Sun, rise from above the darkened mountaintops!
Find me here, waiting as I’ve always been
And know that I am real.
Who was this man
Weakened by need
Countenanced by desire
Who gave himself to the cloudless sky?
Ready to give
Wanting to take
But left in an unfamiliar place
Where pain was the only remedy.
So I pick myself up
Dust the few trails of dust and blood from my thighs
And look you straight in the eye
And say “You don’t own me.”
Remember when I cared
When I gave you all that I could give?
Gone are the days of that unselfish melody
Replaced instead by the calm demeanor of the Beast within.
The parts that you have never seen
The silence in the mist of who I am
The distance I can create with just a slight sweep of my hand
Or the subtle meaning of my words.
That part of me you have never seen
The one that trusts only in the fact that I cannot trust a thing
Who pretends so well to honor the notion of this thing called “faith”
While knowing it only exists in the fool’s mind.
That part of me who will die
Rather than give in to the folly of the heart
Who knows better, who has seen such truths revealed
In the constant battle of love and fear.
That part of me who kill
Rather than be eaten alive
By the very nature of his want to be wanted
Or his need to be needed.
That strong, silent fire that burns within me
Speaking to me with every crackle of the flame
This man does not lie in wait for the pain to come
No, I seek it out and destroys it first.
I am no longer that boy, waiting for the injury
Praying for a God who never answered
Seeking peace that never came
Laying helpless in the darkened corner of my room.
I am this man, standing strong upon my own two feet
Seeking an end to the stupidity
That pits him as second best to any other
Or deserved of any place but at the summit of the mountain.
Put me anywhere else is to defile me
Place me beneath and see my hand break through the surface
Put your foot on my throat and feel it being torn from your ankle
Take your best shot and find it isn’t nearly good enough.
Such strength in knowing who I am
And although lost once I am surely found
In the silence of the lamb led casually to slaughter
I stand now a man afraid of nothing and ready to stand alone.
As I carve the moment into memory
and cut the scene proud into my own arm
Remember the strength compared to the great weakness
And hold your own when the sun pretends to shine.
Do not give in to the moments that will lead you to this one
Remember what you have been shown
What you have been taught by the Teacher of them all
and do not cave to the whims of a heart left lonely for more.
Just remember and hear
Hear the voices that remind you
But stay silent in their song
Do not share the unholy psalm.
Stay quiet my friend and bear the burden upon yourself
Let it go, let it in
And then let it fuel the fire you stoke within
Let it burn bright and hot and may it never dim.
Ψ
Who you turn to
In your time of need, that’s the One.
When lost in your sea of emotion
When the mind takes over
And proves to be an absent friend
The arms that comfort you
Are the arms where you should remain.
Who you talk to
In your moments of turmoil
When the world closes in on you
When the journey seems its longest
And peace seems some distant dream
That mind is the one you need know
The thoughts that should be cherished.
Comfort is not an illusion
It is a message.
A message from one heart to another
From your heart to the rest of you
That tells a simple story of love
and of where you need to be
And where you should return.
Go there, and be happy
Know it every day, every minute, every second
Even in those moments when very ground you tread
rumbles with its dissatisfaction.
Go there, and be happy
Knowing I go there with you
Sometimes with tears, sometimes with a beaming smile.
Go there, and be happy
Like flowers and grasses, bow your lips to the stream.*
And quench your thirst within the River.
I will see you there, someday.
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*Rumi “Eternal Joy”
