In my mind I am laying next to you
Your head on my chest
Your hand gently caressing my arm
We are silent but for our breathing.
You whisper something I don’t need to hear
I can feel it in my Being
I whisper it in return with a tussle of your hair
As my fingers gently follow the contours of your face.
There are no questions in this dream
Our truth is the reality
This truth has set us free
And saved us from the freshly laid tokens of disgust.
You stir and bring your face to mine
Our lips embrace in a dance of pure honesty
Our eyes meet in the space between our thoughts
And instantly we forget we are human.
Your hair falls onto my face
Tickling my skin as our mouths speak silent words
Our hands hold tightly, our hips speak slightly
Even as our hearts sing loudly a song that fills eternity.
Such is Love eternal.
We sit together, anywhere…
Our bodies separate but One
Our minds wondering within the space we walk together
We feel, we touch, we know.
We talk about nothing at all
Or everything.
We laugh, we challenge, we speak our truth
Always knowing the love that shines in our eyes.
There is no fear in us
No games to play, no roles to engage
We find our truths and simply know
Because we walk together in the Light.
We are the Sharing
We are the confidence we feel in one another
We are the thought that brought us together
We have known the anger and have embraced the joy.
We walk in the woods hand in hand
Stopping to smell the essence of who we are
I brush a fly from your cheek
Your hand touches mine in return.
We lock eyes, we can’t escape this moment
As tears form in my eyes the words form in my Soul
“I love you”
Spoken from two hearts a truth insurmountable.
Such is Love eternal.
We argue about something
Or nothing at all.
We fight for who we are
But never lose sight of who We are.
We share our insecurities
And give each other our fears
Not as testaments to dependence
But as acknowledgments of a trust reborn.
We hang up, we go silent
Yet we are quick to forgive
Such forgiveness comes from a place
That sees our humanness for what it is.
I fall into your arms in exhausted revelry
Rejoicing in the beauty that I have found in you
Knowing that you have found the same in me
In that there is a beauty only gods could see.
Such is Love eternal.
We are imperfect and perfect One in the same
A spirit of two as One
In the knowing that one effects the other
Like the Earth effects her moon.
I pull your Oceans to and fro
You hold me in your grasp
A strength only known through the space between
We call moments of imperfection.
Yet despite all of this humanness
When you hold my hand I know sweet Divinity
When you look into my eyes I see Heaven itself
And when you lean on me I know that I am strong.
Such is Love eternal.
I cannot forget this moment of pure joy
The one that gave me this dream,
This moment with you unencumbered
By what we think.
I know what has given life to it
It is something deeper than my thoughts
Something more powerful than my imagination
Something that can change the Universe without an effort.
I know that as surely as I can now feel your hand in mine
And see your beautiful eyes through the tears forming in my own
That this is where I must be
I am home because my heart is with you.
I am grateful for such a powerful understanding
And know that while my mind works its wonders
My Heart is asking for a reprieve
It simply wants to bask in your presence.
If we see the same Sunrise
Tell me you feel it too
Tell me what is in your Soul
Your truth as only you can know it.
I will walk along with you
Sometimes kicking and screaming
Other times laughing and crying in joyful ecstasy
But it will be with you if your truth will allow.
Forgive me, for I know not what I do
In moments of weakness show me strength
In moments of strength show me tenderness
In moments of tenderness show me who I am.
Such is Love eternal.
Author: tomgrasso (Page 4 of 38)
I haven’t felt a beautiful poem in ages
All I’ve felt
Is judgement
Rejection
Denial.
I look at my wings
And am consumed in sadness
They have not been spread in a hundred years
My heart aches
My eyes well up in tortured agony.
I tried
Lord knows I’ve tried
But I was not good enough
She who helped me fly
Has only tied me to this tortured place.
I failed
Lord knows I’ve failed
I was not strong enough
“Bullshit” I say
I had strength enough for the two of us.
I look up to the Heavens
My halo dimmed
By the clouded sense of memory
I let loose
My tears falling like rain to the ground below.
I sit perched upon the Mountaintop
Viewing the flooded valleys
Filled by my lament
The bright-lit edges of the clouds blinding my eyes
The rays of hope highlighting the darkest clouds.
I stare at the place
Where she once sat
Alone I caress the hardened sand
It moves and returns to dust
Just as all things I once loved.
I look up to the Heavens and shout
“Take me, I have nothing left to prove!”
A ray of light shines down upon my face
And I laugh through those tears of tortured memory
Knowing that this is exactly what is left for me to do.
Have nothing to left to prove.
Have nothing left to need.
Have nothing left to seek.
God, I am so far from that place
As I sit in a huddled mess wishing she were here.
So I stand, and walk to the fragile cliff
I gaze at the jagged rocks far below
And then to the Heavens far above
And I realize I must fall in order to fly
I must hit the ground in order to reach the sky.
Will these wings take me Home?
I fear not, but I know not
All I know is that I must try
They must reach out and grab the air
They must breathe in a rush of destiny.
For now I just stare at this mighty cause
As I look back to that place
Somewhat hoping that she’d return
It’s the uncertainty that binds me to this prison
And a feeling that is begging me to stay.
I know I need to know before I go
This is where I am until I am here no longer
Fuck, what part of me asked for this dilemma?
The part of me that loves, that’s who
The part of me that had never known such joy.
So I sigh.
So I pray.
So I return and sit at this flimsy throne.
I cannot help who I am
I can only be the best version of it.
I can do better
I know I can.
I can make you laugh
Make you sing to the Universe sings your tune
I can love you.
I can let go
I know I can.
I can make you smile
While you hum the tune of love
You taught me not so long ago.
I can change
I know I can.
I can be the man you said you loved
While being the dream that makes you happy
If only you would give me such a chance.
I can…I can…
I fucking know I can
I shout to all who will listen
Until even the birds above
Laugh at my stupidity.
I fall to my knees
My hands shoulder the weight of my aching head
As tears stain the ground
And shouts cascade through the air around me
All I need is one, simple, loving touch.
Absence
Silence
Ignorance
Just bullshit games and empty words
I understand…I laugh at the premise.
In the confusion that is change
The mightiest of oaks split
The temples are destroyed
The ground shakes and the mountains die
It’s only confusing to the mind that is not made to understand it.
What is next I wonder?
I feel her coming to me, I need to be clear
This will not work and either will the alternative
But one must be the path I choose
As I stumble to the cliff.
I am strong
Much stronger than this
Some voice says to me in unchained defiance.
I have faced worse and fought
I have suffered more and survived
Fuck this shit, I am MAN.
Chuckle now…
I am but a boy
Lost in her arms, I have felt such greatness
It’s when she let go that I forgot who I was
and thus began the stumble to this cliff.
Come back! I shout
Stop being this and go back to that
Which version is the you you know in your finest hour?
Stop lying, and return
Stop lying, and just go
Whichever, just show me what is truth.
I feel a familiar touch upon my wings…
So I sit, so I stare.
It’s all I know I can do.
I go within
To end the tyranny
To find the greatness that has always been there.
Goodnight mind…
Do you have faith in me?
Enough to forget…
Enough to move on…
Do you think about me?
When you are alone….
When I am not by your side…
Do you reach for me?
When your eyes gaze upon the morning light…
When you throb for that special touch…
Do you?
Fake romantics are like snow boots without soles…
Where I am going
You cannot come with me.
It is a journey made my single souls
Who must face their fears alone.
I feel now that my words do not matter
That you nearly laugh at the thought of them.
I see now that I am not important
That you see me as a housefly you cannot kill.
Or so I feel, and that is why
You cannot come with me.
I must walk alone
As I learn to love myself in spite of you.
I have given you too much
And taken too little.
I have sought to be who you needed
While getting nothing in return.
Today that makes me wish I could die
Tomorrow it will make me happy I am alive.
I have been lying to myself
And for that I am sorry.
I’ve been absorbed in the matters of mind
Lost in that confusion
Catering to that insanity.
I’ve forgotten who I am
And for that I am sorry.
I’ve been lost to fear and self absorption
Trying to answer
The unending riddles of the past.
I’ve forgotten who You are
And for that I am sorry.
The inspiration gave way to perspiration
An effort wasted
Trying to pull water from a desert stone.
I can’t go back in time
And for that I am sorry.
I would open my heart and close my eyes
To see everything
Without the need for translation or hyperbole.
If you walk away now
I am sorry.
I could not see, I could not breathe
Without thinking, without wanting to know
Now I know nothing at all.
So now I play with a thread, a stitch in time
And remain sorry.
For destroying what could have been
With what never was
Anything more than a figment of my imagination.
Sadness envelopes this regretful soul
As I am sorry.
I see so clearly as the fog lifts
Gone in the mist
My eyes close to the tears that are born.
There will be more words
For that I am sorry.
I am love, that beautiful man has not been lost
Or consumed by the onslaught
As he looks for the Tigress who has all be left this place.
He now feels he has failed
Even in being sorry.
He once felt great, and now feels like a nothing again
It’s just a feeling
That will pass as the Sun escapes these torrid clouds.
How, he wonders, has he evaporated?
He knows he is believing his thoughts yet again.
There are no words that come his way
There are no mentions of love to light his way
Only an empty glass that seems to have no bottom.
I am sorry.
Lost in such lonely melancholy
For taking away those moments
Losing my grounding, forgetting my Self.
I now remember.
The slide begins back to Nothingness
To a place where sorry cannot survive
To Love once again
To within as I struggle with the ideas outside of that place
Where I am sorry.
(Written on 6/10/12)
(Written on 6/10/12)
You know you are for real
When you are your honest self.
You know she is for real
When she loves you for it.