The night can be so unkind.
I can hear you, but I can’t touch you. I can see your face, but only when my eyes close to take me away from here. I can hold you, but only when my heart imagines that I am far away…
…next to you. Holding you tightly. Telling you I love you without even saying a word. You knowing it without ever having to open your eyes. Sacred in those spaces, my dreams remind me of your absence, while my heart slowly bleeds with every thought of you.
Pieces of me fall away, and I am left flayed open on the floor. Demons of the night remind me that perhaps such dreams are left for other men. Men who would squander their chance, and throw away this dream for whims and whispers. Time has taught me the value of the promise that is this love, and if I remain so fortunate to have you love me that promise shall never be broken.
Give me hope, my love. Give me that sharpened sword to slay these demons that besiege me in the night. Caress me in the way you do, arise in me the fire that lights the way home. Show me the star that guides me back to you and I shall follow it for eternity. Fan the winds of love that fill my lonely sails and I shall follow those winds to eternity.
Shout my name from high above and feel me hold your heart forever. Write our names upon the bluest skies so that even God can see. Know that though my limbs seem weak at this moment, the strength within me remains intact. Know that when your demons come you can count on me to hold your space or slay them where they stand. Know that when the air becomes too thin my arms were made to carry you. Know that when the moments darkest to the eyes arrive, you will feel my hand in yours and you will never doubt that place again.
These struggles are both a curse and an opportunity. I rise to this challenge, and beg those demons face me. I seek no shelter from this storm save your loving heart, and I seek no surrender from the test save that moment when you arrive. Then, the sword and shield shall fall to the ground and I will hold you. As it was meant to be.
In you I have found safe harbor, and with you I have found the way home. Worry not, your man was built to endure without a shred of falter in his quest. So while this night may be unkind know that all I need do is breathe in your name, close my eyes to see your face, and snarl in the face of such oppressors. Slay them I shall, and then I shall carve your name on their chests just to see their hearts melt as mine has. That is the power of love both destined and gifted to our two mortal hearts by the gods themselves.
No truth exists greater than I love you. Now, off to the battle surely to be waged.